learning SUCKS imo

so guess what i KILLED it again tonight

and yet somehow all killing it yields is sixteen minutes which what one might call a pittance

as much as i have become a real chain of command believer this bothered me. so i talked to keith after the game and said look straight up what do i have to do to earn some grownup minutes and he said look

he paused and stuttered and said look

he said i know who you are and how good you are and if it was up to me youd start but it isnt look nellies the boss and 1300 wins and mikki hooked him up with a primo cupcake maker so youre SOL young man

and hey

i respect keith smart for unspooling it all nice and clean like that and look i know more than i did b4 and on this crazy spinning rock one might say thats all 1 can ask. but i just got pouty and i said keith lets go first principles on this shit and he said dogg we can go aristotelian but we might not go back and i said DID I STUTTER

so he called nellie and speakerphoned us and i said nellie what is it that you most want to achieve. and he said breaking the alltime win record and also drinking every cocktail any pretty girl ever thought of and also making a visible dent in the national supply of hotpockets and i said nellie what about ur heart and he said WHAT HEART and *click*

so now i dunno i mean part of me feels like well roll wit it chain of command but then part of me feels like we can topple this bullshit lets kneecap smart now figure it out later but then still a third part of me is like man keith smart really gets himself some nice shirts. so im in a little bit of stasis and i told my parents id never go stasis on them but man this franchise sucks

otoh piles of money and the fellas are nice so maybe we play this out and then i figure out what i want 2 do w my life

thx 4 listening diRE